To my inner demon...
I see you
I hear you
you've spoke up long enough
and you should of never grew.
I feel you
I understand you
but nothing about you defines me
and very little you say is true.
I'm stronger than you
I don't need you
the darkness will not consume me again
and my happiness is long overdue.
I saw you
I heard you
but your voice has grown faint
nothing you say will alter my truth.
I felt you
I understood you
but I know who I truly am
and your input... I will no longer pursue.
I deserve to be happy
I deserve loves' eternity
even if no one wants my love
I will be my own everything to me.
You told me tonight
that, for me, you may fall...
your words appear reluctant-
I don't think that is all.
Let me enlighten you
on the thoughts in my brain...
despite the diverse thoughts -
they all end the same.
I fall for you
even more with every day...
your eyes, body, your voice, smile and laugh -
seems to make all my darkness fade.
I know that I love you
but I'm too scared to say it...
love and words are my truest of truths -
if I said it all you may call it quits.
I do possess insecurities
though I know I hide them well...
I try to keep them hidden
with no time to dwell.
For starters - there's my feet
as I despise the look, size and
Take a look around-
the clouds whisper
through the breeze circling around me.
Embrace all the beauty
and the vibrant colors
that surround you.
Imagine all you can do-
as others don't portray the world
in the aspect you perceive.
While many disagree-
the world is what you make it
as the possibilities are endless.
People become restless-
though you're easier to please
with your desires in life.
Your concept of time....
would estrange vastly
from the very definition itself.
With every card you're dealt...
you face it head on
with forever in mind, knowing tomorrow may never show.
Every card you face down makes you grow-
creating the very foundati
Look in the mirror
tell me all you see,
what keeps you up at night
and what makes you happy?
When I look in the mirror,
I see a mystery...
an unsolved puzzle
that reveals an occult picture.
There's only two things that keep me up;
the way I feel for her
and if the road ahead will be rough.
Happiness to me is simple,
I want it so I embrace it;
I fight just to keep myself blissful.
You see so much;
a large torch is in your grasp,
hold it true to yourself
and never lose sight of its cast.
For if the flame...
in time begins to fade,
fuel it from within
so you don't dis
Whirling in a storm-
my vision is blurred
weak and helpless;
I'm destroyed by all it's rendered.
Her face in the clouds...
reveal such gratification-
this is because of my new happiness;
she's gloating in what she's don.
To create such havoc
-
gives me a moment of dismay...
that's precisely why I ran
and locked my heart away.
Secured behind lock and key-
no one can destroy it now
only that one who desires and deserves it
will experience my love on a cloud.
I may be deemed a fool
but my tears don't keep me down -
despite the scars that bleed
I always find a way off the ground.
So many thoughts
run through my head;
what difference am I making
for the road ahead?
A phenomenal woman
though I can't pretend to be naive;
I know I have great qualities-
that's maybe what she sees in me.
I find it strange
that this angel isn't even mine;
yet I find myself not looking at anyone else
and I'm perfectly fine.
She's embedded in my head
and I don't even care;
though my family has warned me-
that I should get prepared.
Yes, I may get hurt
and tumble to the ground alone;
in time she may walk away
but none of this is known.
She's too perfect to be true
flaws and all - so what's the catch;
letting time put my heart in her hands
then
Floating in another dimension;
so radiant;
so indescribable.
The bright lights tend to blind me
but undoubtedly hypnotizing.
How can so much beauty reside in one place;
so warming;
so magical.
It's as though I've been here before;
where all my feelings are stored.
Images that put true love to shame;
so perfect;
so unique.
When I find myself in this fairytale land...
I feel so vulnerable to the atmospheres' enchantment.
Why do I feel all these emotions in this world;
so captivated;
so.... good?
For in this world is where she stays,
her touch constantly rushing through my veins.
Her voice echoes through my mind;
so soothing;
so gentle.
Her kiss
To my inner demon...
I see you
I hear you
you've spoke up long enough
and you should of never grew.
I feel you
I understand you
but nothing about you defines me
and very little you say is true.
I'm stronger than you
I don't need you
the darkness will not consume me again
and my happiness is long overdue.
I saw you
I heard you
but your voice has grown faint
nothing you say will alter my truth.
I felt you
I understood you
but I know who I truly am
and your input... I will no longer pursue.
I deserve to be happy
I deserve loves' eternity
even if no one wants my love
I will be my own everything to me.
You told me tonight
that, for me, you may fall...
your words appear reluctant-
I don't think that is all.
Let me enlighten you
on the thoughts in my brain...
despite the diverse thoughts -
they all end the same.
I fall for you
even more with every day...
your eyes, body, your voice, smile and laugh -
seems to make all my darkness fade.
I know that I love you
but I'm too scared to say it...
love and words are my truest of truths -
if I said it all you may call it quits.
I do possess insecurities
though I know I hide them well...
I try to keep them hidden
with no time to dwell.
For starters - there's my feet
as I despise the look, size and
Take a look around-
the clouds whisper
through the breeze circling around me.
Embrace all the beauty
and the vibrant colors
that surround you.
Imagine all you can do-
as others don't portray the world
in the aspect you perceive.
While many disagree-
the world is what you make it
as the possibilities are endless.
People become restless-
though you're easier to please
with your desires in life.
Your concept of time....
would estrange vastly
from the very definition itself.
With every card you're dealt...
you face it head on
with forever in mind, knowing tomorrow may never show.
Every card you face down makes you grow-
creating the very foundati
Look in the mirror
tell me all you see,
what keeps you up at night
and what makes you happy?
When I look in the mirror,
I see a mystery...
an unsolved puzzle
that reveals an occult picture.
There's only two things that keep me up;
the way I feel for her
and if the road ahead will be rough.
Happiness to me is simple,
I want it so I embrace it;
I fight just to keep myself blissful.
You see so much;
a large torch is in your grasp,
hold it true to yourself
and never lose sight of its cast.
For if the flame...
in time begins to fade,
fuel it from within
so you don't dis
Whirling in a storm-
my vision is blurred
weak and helpless;
I'm destroyed by all it's rendered.
Her face in the clouds...
reveal such gratification-
this is because of my new happiness;
she's gloating in what she's don.
To create such havoc
-
gives me a moment of dismay...
that's precisely why I ran
and locked my heart away.
Secured behind lock and key-
no one can destroy it now
only that one who desires and deserves it
will experience my love on a cloud.
I may be deemed a fool
but my tears don't keep me down -
despite the scars that bleed
I always find a way off the ground.
So many thoughts
run through my head;
what difference am I making
for the road ahead?
A phenomenal woman
though I can't pretend to be naive;
I know I have great qualities-
that's maybe what she sees in me.
I find it strange
that this angel isn't even mine;
yet I find myself not looking at anyone else
and I'm perfectly fine.
She's embedded in my head
and I don't even care;
though my family has warned me-
that I should get prepared.
Yes, I may get hurt
and tumble to the ground alone;
in time she may walk away
but none of this is known.
She's too perfect to be true
flaws and all - so what's the catch;
letting time put my heart in her hands
then
Floating in another dimension;
so radiant;
so indescribable.
The bright lights tend to blind me
but undoubtedly hypnotizing.
How can so much beauty reside in one place;
so warming;
so magical.
It's as though I've been here before;
where all my feelings are stored.
Images that put true love to shame;
so perfect;
so unique.
When I find myself in this fairytale land...
I feel so vulnerable to the atmospheres' enchantment.
Why do I feel all these emotions in this world;
so captivated;
so.... good?
For in this world is where she stays,
her touch constantly rushing through my veins.
Her voice echoes through my mind;
so soothing;
so gentle.
Her kiss
When I stare into your deep brown eyes
I'm left with nothing but breathtaking love.
The calmness, tranquility, and soothing light
I see in them can quell my worst of storms.
It's as if my life suddenly comes to a halt.
I'm no longer worried, no longer anxious.
All I see is you, your heart, your tenderness.
And when that happens ... I know I'm alright.
I wonder if you can understand the words that I now spit,
because I write your soul a message every time I take a hit.
And I'm not talking about weed, I don't even touch that shit,
because no chemical could ever sate me with this fire that's been lit.
So follow me into the riots, into the war zone and dead lands.
Humanity seems to be killing itself but we all pretend it's alright man.
Just look around you and grasp at happiness, you'll think you're touching straws,
because it fizzles the moment you touch it and it just leaves you feeling raw.
So forget the rules of society, I'll rewrite it into sobriety.
We've all been sleeping far too long
I have been told I should get my own hoard
Cause every drake should protect precious gold
But I never felt this desire at all
The truth's
my precious treasure's you.
she's taking a long walk
off a short pier
just like they told her to
with rocks tied to her feet
in hopes of finding a new world
deep at the very bottom
unless the sharks catch her first
ripping her apart with teeth
sharper than the razorblades
she used on her arms
creating new scars for each harsh word
but either way her soul
will find its way home
far above this wretched planet
back among the stars
where her thoughts always dwelled
No, I don't miss missing you, by voltairemarx, literature
Literature
No, I don't miss missing you,
No, I don't miss missing you,
No I don't miss kissing you,
No I wont be caught pissing on your poster,
No I wont, Why wont you get closer?
No I don't miss missing you,
I'm the lyre loving liar,
No I don't miss Dissing you.
Leftovers for the next buyer,
You are the flame, the fire,
Burning in our minds,
You are the thing, desire,
Unkind and untimely, just fine, Im me myself and I,
And myself says to I, Kill him, referring to me.
I say listen up, Im too precious, Heavier than heaven, head severed by the golden glistening heaven tether. never separate the clever and the feathery blessed blood letter.
The letter reads:
It wasn't
Why dine with suicide? by voltairemarx, literature
Literature
Why dine with suicide?
Hey, this is my life,
Why do I dine with suicide?
Hey, This is my life,
Why do I dine with suicide?
Yes I am fine,
Why do I Lie?
Why do I try?
And,
Yes I am fine,
It's She or I,
So I die.
Hey, This is my life,
Why dine with suicide?
Hey, cuz its my wife,
an ex-life starring : Do or die.
All, we ever wanted,
Was wanted by the unlovable.
All, She ever wanted.
was to learn what love was and leave the unlovable.
You tell me of my beauty & i look the other way,
this curse bestowed upon me; i will defeat.
Trying so hard
to say the right thing;
the sting,
will it disappear?
This ever lasting fear
like a sniper in a shooting range;
i'm in a cage,
will i ever escape?
My heart is a villain smothered in tape
just trying to get through the pain;
a bursting vain,
will anyone set me free?
A light so very bright i see
showing me my destiny of success;
with less stress,
will i still carry it on?
Enlightening me like the break of dawn
that i am beautiful;
so special,
are these words you speak true?
You elaborate on things i never knew
like
I'm 22 years old and I live with my beloved girlfriend, Amanda and her two kids. We've been together for almost two years now and still going strong. My life is working at a daycare I've been with since October of 2013. I love it and who would of ever thought I'd make it in childcare and be one of the best known teachers? humph. I live everyday to please my family, give them all they desire and do my life's dreams one step at a time. My girlfriend is my everything and we complete each other in ever backwards and opposite way possible but we make it work:) I'm not the person I was two years ago when the cloud was all I knew. I've grown and regrouped my shit and here I am standing strong. I don't regret my past cause I had a blast and experienced things I never would of on my own. Those days linger in my mind every night. However, my life I've created now- I wouldn't trade for the world. <3
Comment on my writing or subscribe to me and let me know your harsh or flattering opinions!
Personal Quote: Live life with no regrets because at one point in time...you wanted to do it.
Favourite Movies
Anything with Adam Sandler, Will Ferrel, or Ashton Kutcher
We're moving into our first house on Saturday and I'm super stoked!!! My girlfriend and I have saved up all year for this!!! Between my promotion at work.... my beautiful new truck and my perfect family!!!! .... Life is pretty swell.... but don't let my excitement fool you that things are pitch perfect for nothing in life would be perfect if not for the hiccups that turn into mole hills that transform into mountains that you have to slave yourself to get over. Given our fire hydrant of a pit has brought us crazy stress.... we did it!! Share your most recent stories with me! I'd love to hear them! The good the bad the best the worst!!
Becoming a part of something new
a concept beyond my actual knowing
the battles;
they're ongoing
I'm trying to create a family
a new family I now have
a step parent is exactly as hard as it may sound
with no one on my side lurking around
My past continues to haunt me
who says a piece of paper defines you
who says your previous actions make up your core
when you're no longer who you were before
Corrections;
my dream, my life, my goal...
no longer an option
for my previous darkness prevails
so I move forth
Police Office;
my current standing
passing every obstacle without a doubt
exam, physical and now to that darkness
the w
So my life so far has been pretty smooth. I have a fantastic girlfriend, Amanda, who is everything and than some to me. I just sent my resume to work at Adobe Juvenile Facility today so hopefully I get a reply back with some good feedback! My fingers are crossed! I really don't come on here much anymore, given I hardly write and when I do it's only to clear my head and honestly, it doesn't even sound good to me anymore. I've been drawing a little bit here and there but, on account of my stubborn side, I find it repulsing! ha.